make myself clearly understood
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
I'm sorry, but I'm not dispensable. I'm with "you" here & now! Anonymity is what I would like to feel. Free to know that there is not someone out in the environment looking to take me down as "game" because of their perceived sense of vision., or their elite sense of standing in their own mind. Their point of view is couched in their divinity with their God; whoever that is is a matter of contention, but the point is taken. They are there. My "fear" is real, but it can not interfere with dreaming unless I allow it to. So all of the players in the story are telling you a "false" story about me; so I'm telling something about them. It was Judge Fields who sat on the bench during the proceeding and allowed the rogue-prosecutor to scream out to the sitting jury; " he is a time-share sales man, what chance did she have?" She set the seed of distrust based upon their experiences when taking a timeshare tour. At this point I must say that "statement" did not get into the "trial's" transcript. It's S.C. what else can anyone say? I was found guilty because I was a "timeshare" salesman. Yes! In those days every one who was anywhere near them took a tour and got a very bad taste for the salesman's exaggerations. Now! Here is the point: Many years latter a friend of mine got stained by my conviction when she attempted to assist me with recovery. I had what some might call a mental meltdown when I was attempting my re-entry into society's impossibility. Because I was in charge of her hopeful projects the more the community of elites pressed back against her and she too was shunned. She is a advocate of early childhood education; it belongs in the home. So here is the "irony:" She tried to purchase a property on Romney st. Charleston, S.C. so that she could offer it up to those women in the neighborhood as an entrepreneurial center for employing the families in the immediate vicinity.This property sat in the middle of two housing projects where residents have to walk if they want to save money, not drive. Transportation for the poor is a major factor in limiting their possibilities. She was not asking anyone one for any help to pay for her opportunity to further the community's effort. She was willing to pay all expenses to get the project under way. But because she was "stained" with my "scarlet letter" like the star of David pinned on the Jews of Germany by Hitler. These Charleston housing projects were home to many Black minority children who would love to have had their parents in a more opportunistic mood because of her project. Why were these minority children fair game to be hunted down and incarcerated instead of being give the opportunity to prosper? Tell me, Judge Fields, how does it feel to see the stench rise of off your sacred influence? Right! Fuckin' A! Drink to the God of omission & spread your "degrees of freedom" as we say in Numbers, "what does 'law' got to do with it"...'law' is but a second hand emotion...." The punch line is: Nietzsche was right, God is dead, S.C. seconds the motion. e-mail email@example.com
Monday, October 13, 2014
They are stealing because they are not being utilized. If you "ostracize" them, you create a vacuum for them, meaning they are denied their membership rights into life's game. They are the "slaves." When the Judge is appointed as in the state of S.C. and not elected or otherwise controlled through or influenced through the legislative powers the "slave's" environment is set to deny the "slave." Slavery is the spice of the day, every day. Now! Here is the point: John Dunne wrote in meditation 17, "...no man is an island..." also, " ask not for whom the bell tolls, it tolls for the..." So, here is the question: if you "ostracize" them, what than will they become a part of? They cannot be a part of the whole community enjoying their civil rights because the dominant principle is to dominate the agenda through political posturing. For example, when you have no rights because the state is a right to work state where the individual has no leverage, elites rule. Their theme is "the most restrictive restricts"; a few aristocratic minded minds will control their world. Now, they thought this because when they woke up in the morning and looked around they were the Southern "high cotton" intelligentsia who controlled the slave labor in their day, 1860's. For in its day it had its value because the elites thought that they were on the right side of thought, their ideas. The population as a whole is made up of slaves and that was Yesteryear's and this is Today. But the "high cotton" agenda still prevails in S.C. I say its "spice" is thriving on slavery. They can do it because you consider yourself to be a "body;" you are a brain that has a mind to play with; but you would rather be a body that is in control as it was in the days of the 1860's. It even seems that you wanted the South to win the war over slavery so that you could assume a Fascist mind set. Let me give you a metaphor for the "Fascist mind set" to help process my thought: Il Duce & the Church. In the early 1900's the Catholic Church of Rome, the Pope controlled the land and the souls of Italy, but they were poor because the elites controlled commerce, therefore, the money. So when Mussolini came into power in the 1930's, he cut a deal with the church: he took all of the land accept an Island state in the middle of the city of Rome, Italy's capital, allowing the church to be its own state actor with banking powers, "Il Duce" got the land and its population -as a right to work state, Fascism. "A right to work state like S.C. is a Fascist state of mind if not of the body as well. Let me end with this thought of what if? ...the people of S.C. tore of the Legislative mask which hides all of the "sins." For example, when Pope Francis tore the mask off of the Church's banking model he found out that the church was so liquid because it had its fingers in all sorts of eCommerce like owning over 8,000 tourist units in down town London, England with a street value of well in excess of millions per day, plus the church owns the property as well. Yes! S.C wants you to be " barefoot and pregnant" with its antiquated mind set blowing up your helium balloon of life. e-mail, firstname.lastname@example.org
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Midnight is the benchmark of time; it is also the beginning & ending of time's daily routine. Now! What I do with my time has nothing to do with you unless you have "fuck-ed" over my state of consciousness like when the Nettles' family walked into a court room, lied to the Jury about my actions out of "spite & greed." Yes, this is what is know as "white 'trailer park' trash" in the old Southern way of relating about someone's status, "white trash." But! What the fuck! The key to understanding is simple when you realize that it is a fool's game if you put your future on the "backside" of anyone other than yourself. Like in my case, I am grafted to their "lies" because S.C allowed this to happen through its corruptible judiciary. But in your case, you are untethered unless you are willing to choose to follow instead of lead. So, now each moment is earned or lost depending on what you did with the moment at hand. For example: are you waiting for someone to do something for you so that you can finish the moment; or is someone waiting on you to do something so that there is continuity of moments, as the old sage once said to his young disciple, it's "moment to moment" that we live, so act that way by incurring into a "role-play" that gives direction to these moments coming up, like the "pack" man of yesteryear consuming its dots on the screen. Yes! As you traverse the moment at hand, you couch it in "self best interest;" otherwise, the generalized other will not understand your motives. This is the greatest "sin," to speak and not be understood. Communication is allowing for the differences between two or more points at any moment. e-mail email@example.com
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
So what is this moment all about? It is about anger; it is about the fragmented Middle East. To me, anger is a state of mind that has given up its "weakness" of thought. Yes! thinking in "context" allows force of nature to manifest its construct of accommodating and assimilating the various interests in the Middle East. To me the key to the region is not to destroy each others differences because you would stand alone; therefore, you would be where you started from; you would be alone without counsel. The idea of going "tribal" is governess out of council. Another way to look at "it" is to think exponentially because it is the confluence with others of various perspectives that gives us the greatest "stage" to unfurl the region's potentiality. For example, I believe that you become angry when your intellect is being challenged because you cannot think. As in the children's game of paper rock scissors, scissors cuts paper like anger shreds mind. If I may set up another metaphor to play with, let us look to the Middle East & see what could be with a little bit of imagination. Turkey is the key to many pathways of possibilities. Like the Ottoman Empire's interpretation of "the Prince" by Machiavelli brought the tribes from the region under one rule. Yes! the steps of the Mediterranean lead to Turkey as the "roads" led to Rome. Bring Turkey into the European Union would or could become the stage that will give voice to its environs. Yes! If Turkey were to be what it was, it would be Sunni and not Shia, meaning there would be a clear division of authority. Sunni was meant to govern since the inception of the Muslim religion. For example, if you were a follower & a member of the tribe you were Sunni & if you were a follower & a convert you were Shia. How about if we play the game of "context": If Bush 2 took out Saddam, but did not take out the Sunni construct of governess the Middle East today would be a much better place. Just because Saddam was brutality in wielding the Sunni construct does not mean that the Sunni construct of governance is "brutal;" it's tribal, not democratic. e-mail firstname.lastname@example.org
Monday, September 29, 2014
Friday, September 26, 2014
"Life is a Dream," where the king locked up his "son" because of how "loud" the Queen screamed during his childbirth. I was born an Irish mongrel not a prince so for me it was to the "gas oven" & my mother's attempted suicide; but, I survived. & It is also true that maybe it just set me on a different path from those who were not "gassed" at birth like the "Prince" he was simply locked up in a "library" with a Master to educate him & teach him how to forgive; Yes! If he did not forgive the king for his "imprisonment" when he turn 21; he would be killed instead of free. Anyway! The prince did not die & neither did I. It's a Polish "fair" tale. You Know! But -as we are all aware- life is a "bitch" even when you are one of the winners because everyone wants what you want. Or! May be you should consider yourself to be luck because you are one of the privilege individuals who can go on vacation or "stay-cation" depending on your mood, not on being a "broke" puppy who does not have anyone holding on to their leash. Yes! please stop complaining because you are so so lucky. Let me tell you a sad story, I'm in Charleston, S.C. I live here & I do not have a stranger to talk to because nobody knows my "sorry." For example, how can you move on when every 90 days you have to be stenciled like the "Jews of the Father Land?" This has been going on for 25 years; I'm in good health which means that it can go on for another 15 to 20 years. It started off every week I had to register & put a "bulls eye" on my back identifying me as one of those "sick mother Fuckers" that society should "rape & abuse" both of which have happened to me on the streets of Charleston, S.C. I bring this up because I had lunch with someone this past weekend in Asheville, N/C. who is very rich in friends; but, she does not see it as an asset; she things of money as an asset and therefore I'm privilege; & should move on and stop complaining because their are many Blacks who have been rejected too; you have so much more. You can travel -a man of leisure. Fucking amazing. e-mail email@example.com
Monday, September 22, 2014
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Saturday, September 20, 2014
It is all about the small " i," the insignificant "eye." This is when someone is in a situation & their sense of social intercourse is off on their level of engagement. This could be considered, like the "Peter Principle," a moment when one's lever of "compliance" has been breached because the "i" is slipping in the quicksands that form around the "shifting sands" sponsored by life's fiascoes.Yes! the small "i" doesn't manage, resolve or contain; it traverses the fiasco like the skier traverses the moguls coming down the slope of life, some days there is "powder," other days there is "ice." For example, someone could go out into the desert, find a large sand dune and ski off and never even get wet. For example, there is a character called "Don De Marco" talking to his doctor about being "Don Juan" from century's past, lady killer -Dream Merchant. All the "ladies" were loving him because they subscribed to his "dream." This is the small "i" living it out on a different stage. I say this because I had the same relationship with my doctor; but there were differences. My doctor could not believe that I was so stupid or so unlucky while I was reflecting about my "fiascoes" that he chose to conclude that I was delusional as "Don De Marco" when he believed that he was the "legendary lover." We had great sessions but he really believed that my "stories" where just that "stories " when, in fact, they were honest attempts toward recovery. Now it is true that I was seeing him because I was "court ordered." The S.C. court said that I needed five years of intensive indoctrination because I refused to recognize my behavior, guilt. Now for the rest of the "story": It was a "kangaroo court" during the storm "Hugo" which slammed S.C. What I was accused of never happened; so how could I find it in my reflections? Therefore there is no "Redemption." The problem is that my doctor thought that the court testimony was truthful which it was not. His assignment was based on the "truth" of false testimony. e-mail firstname.lastname@example.org
Friday, September 19, 2014
If it is my job to tickle the "hell" out of you, then please bend over and allow me to stick my tongue up your "ares" and wiggle it around until you get a good belly laugh. OK! Let us put this another way: Because I am a "child" of life, I learn "vicariously" as I do the bidding. And that usually means that I have to pull someone's head right out of their ass -first. The point that I'm trying to make is simple & yes, complex. For example, there is an expression that goes something like this: "think outside of the box." So, here is the secret: become a "box" collector, fill those boxes with "shoes" & than sell them back to the "ladies" as fashion. It's the "experience" learned "piece by piece" from playing in those boxes that puts you on the path to enlightenment, or "whatever." I'm the "disciple" from hell because it is "hell" when you get there. It is the assumption of "truth," at someone's level of knowledge about the "box"; this is what a mathematician might look at and say "degrees of freedom" because when dealing with a complex situation there are variables between and within these variables. There is nothing more "naive" than an uneducated mind because it keeps its "box" for "athletic" shoes which everyone knows only leads one to competition & "one upsmenship," which has no baring on the "validity" of the "sale" -idea. Now is the "time" to give your "box" a tickle & see if you are getting a good belly laugh. e-mail email@example.com
Thursday, September 18, 2014
Hear I sit because the state of S.C. has me in a "political" system which is eschewed in corruption. Yes! I am declaring my self a "political prisoner;" PP that's me. The state is denying me my 13th & 14th constitutional rights under the Constitution of the U.S. of America. This is why I'm in the "union" business, the business of unionizing "felons."You Know! I am a non -citizen in the land of my birth -a man without a sanctuary. Yes! I am homeless living in a sea of "shame" brought about by the "corrupt crackers" who wield the Devil's will. So, now I carry the sign to devil stenciled on my shame -666. Heathen -666, this is their sense of a felon's value. You Know! I'm the "stick"-bitch that society likes to stick their pins into as they worship in their hollows of Voodoo. & they do it so well; yet I do think that it would excite me more if they wore just a taste of leather. Let's get real & go on the "down low" with their idea of Sodomy. For example, Karl Menninger wrote in "man against himself" that a black man feels that it is his duty to make a white man his wife. This is the needle that S.C. uses to stick in its "stick"-bitch of a doll when it goes into the bowels of its soul & religious practices, like Voodoo. From one who has been there, there is one theme that runs through an inmate's mind when vacationing with the department of corrections & it is "what will I be tonight; will I be a "pitcher" or a"catcher." "C'est Sera Sera" the future is not mine to see, what will be will be. But the end game will be the same, the state of S.C. will stick the black man's "prick" into the white "cracker's" hole and the marriage will be consummated,
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Sunday, September 14, 2014
It's all about the money: if you have the "money," honey, I have the time. Somebody has the time when someone else has the money. Money! Money! who's got the "time?" So what is the purpose of life if "money & time" are the pathways to "Joy?" I personally do not have this mind set: Because to me there seems to be some way to combine "work & calling" - something that comes from within after it has had a time to percolate from the conundrum of the "soul." So the "cause" is personal growth. So let your calling be your personal growth through a confluence with others. Yes! How about being apart of the "fabric" of that which is naturally coming out of you. You & I are the cause behind life because we are living when we are involved with others. When we are self absorbed in the mission over "objects" instead of purpose we lose the natural relations of community that is needed to sustain us in the fabric of society. For example, most of us are not test tube babies, we were formed inside of the body of a woman, mother. Now maybe you did not have a good relationship with your mother; but it's the metaphor that I'm using because you come out of the womb; Motherhood is a different "kettle of fish" which is larger than you. It is like social justice over the rebirth of purpose of containment in Prison. For example, consider abortion! Instead of coming into life with a "spirit," I might have been formed in the test tube, or like a petri dish sample being formed in the laboratory. And there would be no -soul of spirit - just another avatar taking their place in a Fascist form of socialization. Prison does not allow for the -soul of spirit, it neuters creativity into propaganda, turning the individual into a "garbage disposal" that consumes for the sake of consumption and the local land fill. Also, the prison could have been planted when you were forming; therefore, there would be no desires for actualization, only conformity of behavior with a prospect of redemption in the after life, recycling.
Friday, September 12, 2014
Thursday, September 11, 2014
Monday, September 8, 2014
Thursday, September 4, 2014
The seed must die -in human terms- to become what you can. Yesterday died so that today could live; therefore today will die so that tomorrow will live. Think "moment to moment" management's decisions based upon "containment or resolution" principles. To be alive is to be without judgment so that you can listen to that which is being said, plus the "why" of it. The "why" of it stays where it is; we move out and about from stage to stage where each 'Why" of it is applied. Every stage has its own "why" of it. Every day we play so many different roles as we go about our daily routine, not thinking about how these roles unfurl; they just do because it is who we are, it is our nature. Flexibility of "style" is how freely the skin of the past comes pealing off, freeing from the old & acquiring the new. For example, the meaning of "is" to ISIS is the meaning of Spartacus to Rome. Today the U.S. is Rome. So to deal with ISIS you must understand that their learned memories are all emotional when dealing with the land that they walk across. Like Putin of Russia taking back Crimea because it belong to the U.S.S.R. empire. ISIS belongs to the Ottoman Empire and it's taking it back. The Allies had no right to split up the tribe's land when they contoured the empire up into states. Giving the House of Saud top billing with the Arabian peninsula. Sunni is the governing arm of their belief system; Shia is the religious side of the system. Shia law is their meaning to what "is" is. There will never be a two state solution with Israel; ISIS knows this; it is the U.S. that does not have any "skin" in the game. The U.S. has a financial interest in the Middle East, but it does not have any "emotion." To the U.S. the Middle East is a game of mental masturbation; it's intellectual not intercultural. This is because it does not understand that there is no more land to be discovered, like the U.S. was discovered in 1776 so it took the land away from Great Britain. Remember the Allies took it -land- away from the Ottomans at the end of WWII. ISIS -ISIL are the children of the Ottoman Empire, the children of the land known as the Middle East. The U.S only wants to recognize their founding fathers as "patriots" and all others subject to being call "terrorists."
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
It happens every moment of ever moment, yet it is never discovered. The moment that you understand someone else through one of your own discretion, titillating as it is to imagine its possibilities, having a private mirror into another soul. Now when I review my daily read from "Facebook," there is one in particular which is very scintillating because its effect is very titillating; it will arouse their effect too. What I know now is that "she" gets the same feed as I do at the same time as I do so that if my imagination wonders she is there to reel me back in. Yes! It is her "morning" feed of porn: I feel as if I'm the fly on the wall; the voyeur behind the lens buried deep in her psyche as she feeds from the program being offered for her pleasures of self dining within her panties. Her fingers "...doing the walking..." as they say, the Yellow pages of yesterday's dreams. Anyway! My morning feed from Facebook spans the world. I get the feed from TheBlackMarket.me. My friends on Facebook " walk without feet; fly without wings; & think without mind" as they explode like the quiet firecrackers they are all over the skies of possibilities being dished out on my morning's feed from Facebook. I cannot believe that I got talked out of acquiring #10,000 shares at $17 and change. Today, shares are running around $65 and change. I lost out with Facebook even though that I knew the secret. Now! I know a new "secret": will I let it slip through my fingers as I let Facebook get away or will I remain the voyeur behind the lens buried deep into her libido. To me, it is all about privacy: the other person's privacy has to be freely relinquished otherwise there are boundaries to be respected. Serendipity is and has always been the third rail between "moment to moment" & " this too will pass." Knowing what I know now about this particular "she" I feel happy for her because everyone need a "get out of jail free" card if they get lock up in a situation which is not enough. To be honest with you, she does not need for me to know that she is feeding on the stuff to be "sexy;" she is a woman with a brain that is very creative in "freeing others of their old assumptions" so that they can "discern previously unseen patterns" that will allow them to come and touch, taste, tap into & toy with you. It is all yours to share with others for "that which is ours is yours alone." Side bar: "may yesterday's dream be tomorrow's memory."
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Open up to life's possibilities, worry not about the possibility of "sin" because according to Updike "you cannot get there from here." Why? Because there is no "sin" without contempt; everyone knows that there is no pleasure in contempt. So first be someone who is growing & willing to give up what "is" for the possibility of what could be. There is no "sin" in your DNA; "sin" comes when the individual disobeys the wishes from someone else & their beliefs- for example, one's religion or one's social contract that does not ever take the individual into consideration unless it is by way of a threat against their life in the next world. "Fuck" the next world; it is the time spent in this world that offers the individual a memory for whatever eternity is in store for whomever, like whatever. Now, please remember -probability has no way to get a handle on the truth to the query about the "afterlife." How do you even take the "afterlife" into consideration for when the moment comes, it is so solipsistic to begin to imagine because life will no longer be on the table. That is right; when someone dies they are no longer on the table of life. So stop being a foolish so & so and stand up on life's table and set your site on the horizon in front of the opportunity awaiting to be harvested by you my friend. Because the key to understanding is realizing that it is so foolish to end up like me living my life as a "face book friend" instead of being in life and living on the various Shakespearean situations which abound aplenty out and about in the community;
commune with life.
commune with life.
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Monday, August 25, 2014
I have no "idea." It's the Stockholm syndrome I suppose: please do not hold me responsible after you stomped this shit into my head. The accepted negative format coming back on itself, like a piranha from one of the South American streams chowing down on someone's ass. Yes! This is the truth because society is very cruel when it thinks that it has been crossed. The mob will form for anyone of the various causes that gets touted about on a daily bases. When I think about myself, the way in which prison's effect destroyed my past because I died in prison, meaning that the life form that entered prison is not the life form that came back out, brainless & without past memories, scrambled anyway. Now! Life is quicksand because their is no control when society feels it has been crossed. Yes! I believe that I must be falling in love with my captors since I claim that I am a "political" prisoner. I am a felon in society's prison; it's "the icicle garden," where every day is a snow day. The U.S.S.R. had Siberia's gulags & the U.S. has its prison mentality of separating its population by class distinction, like felon on the bottom never to become touchable unless politically connected to the power elites. Than you can run for State office; "you know" like the Senate in S.C. What can I say, in this world of ours -yours and mine- we have to accept those who stomp away on our "liberties" or we will be denied our "rights;" this is said to be done in the name of safety, homeland security. Picture the inner workings of Machiavelli's take on the Marquis de Sade's inner sense of balancing his pleasures as they bounce -out and about- on the happy environs of desire. The "Prince" was all about inculcating the masses into control by dominating over their resources like de Sade tortured his victims for his own gratification -orgasm. Yes! "the times they are changing..." but the fucking power structure; its connection to the corrupt streams flowing from the churches' dogma on "redemption" is polluted so as to foster "polio" of the soul.
Sunday, August 24, 2014
When the "mouse" takes control of spell check, I cannot stand those red lines for they challenge me so I want my "fucking" mouse back. I cannot spell my way out of yesterday's underpants if you catch my drift. OK! It started working again! What a relief to get rid of the red lines about spelling. It is just amazing how much I can get those 26 letters messed up, out of sequence. Life could be made simple if only: Imagine that you were in a circle of 26 people, each representing one of the letters in the alphabet, each with its unique sound so that you can mix & match letter -strings into word -strings to maximize the day's journal entry. The individual is as unique or subtle as is the sounds of the letters in one's alphabet; now the differences can be tricky when you, let's say translate English to french; yet, sound is not taken into consideration lending this to contribute to misunderstandings. Now! With my mouse, I have "right click" on the mouse and the word is corrected by a tape of the "finger"; use the index figure and have fun with yourself. I do not have "right click" on people so I am still getting them wrong, how about you? That is why I ask you to get into a circle of 26 people, see if you can discern their "right click." Meanwhile, since the circle is formed check out the different sounds coming from the unique differences that each in the circle are radiating out. It has been said by those who are much brighter than I am, as long as you are in the circle listening to the sounds of others in the circle, the greater your understanding of the character and timber of those in the circle. Yes! please imagine what kind of "memoir" you could write if you took the time to participate with those in your circle of friends, allowing for their differences as you explored the many difference within yourself. I wish people had a "right click" like my Mouse does.
Saturday, August 23, 2014
Let me be: "let it be...." When everything is on the table, you are on the table too: Meaning, action is continuously in motion as your stomach's respiratory system is. Action is the tangential force nurturing the optimal outcome. For example, "fear" is the absence of action for action is fearless because it is action that makes the world go round, not fear and procrastination. Yes, it is true that there are consequences for each move being made moment to moment as life moves on. Let me tell you a "story": in the complex where I live the water bill is part of the regime's monthly costs. So, if the water is being wasted than it is my responsibility as a citizen of the corporation's alliance to speak up; I said to the little cigarette smoking oriental looking man who was spraying the plants from the opposite side of the driveway, flooding the drive between himself and the bushes, " water is 'very' expensive." Yes that was it; for he shut the water off, went home. Now, I do not know why he did not just walk across the drive, spraying the bushes and not wasting water. So, what am I saying? The oriental looking man understood the consequences of his actions and acted appropriately. As for myself, I was hoping that the man had some of his Divine DNA in his family's tree because he could take offense. By his actions, he did not question this funny looking old white man wearing a foolish hat on his head with a feather sticking out of it portraying an image, that he could be a beast of nature. You Know! I would not want to engage in a long conversation over his socialization if I did not have to, especially on my way to turn the water on at the pool, because the real temperature here in Charleston today will be 107, at this temperature water evaporates drearily. But the pool must stay at a steady level to run it properly for the use of the guests. I'm not a guest, I'm a victim of a foolishly constructed homeowners contract. I do not use the pool so the water level means nothing to me; yet nature means everything to me. I would rather be watering the plants & bushes properly than what I was on my way to do, turning the water spigot on, allowing water into the pool so that the sun can suck it up. Yes! mother nature will also spit it right back at me in the form of one of S.C.'s stormy hurricanes. But when I get that "water" back it is not on my sewer bill; it is covered by my insurance's obligation. The "Beatles" strike again, "let it be....
Thursday, August 21, 2014
I want to form a union of felons because I'm a felon without "rights;" every felon in the state of S.C. has been persecuted because of who they were, felons. Felons are the new "slave class" in the U.S. when you cannot go before the courts because of previous behavior that had been adjudicated and resolved yet reactivated when the laws change. For example, the sex offender registry did not exist when I was sentenced and it did not come into effect until after I was released from prison. Yet, because of political corruption and judicial collusion, I have been tethered to the cross because I will not confess to a crime that I did not commit. I herd story after story while I was in prison from inmates who said that they had confessed to their crime because the "rogue" prosecutors intimidated them into confessing guilt for a lighter sentence or go to trial and end up serving life in prison instead of the bargaining down with the judge who has sway over the prosecutor. For example. I went before the Real Estate Commission looking to get my Real estate license back; so that I could work for BlueGreen a real estate company marketing the "Lodge Alley Inn" in Charleston, S.C - Otherwise known as a "job." Jinny purchase a membership in the "lodge Alley Inn" so I could use it as a free family vacation raffle for Charleston County school district. Jinny wanted to connect to the community so that she was giving back. The winning family from the school district would get to use the right to trade through out the trading system, like Disney World in Florida or wherever. So, the idea was to use the Lodge Alley Inn as as place to meet others and have the privacy of a suite for private bathroom usage for the ladies at night. The night that they fired me was the night set for Jinny's function and therefore we had to call all the guests up and tell them that it was canceled. They did this so that they could make the guest take a tour first. They did not care that it was a research project that Jinny was doing on the subject of "transportation" and schools for children, like the "Child & Family Development Center," at the old Charleston Naval base. This was not a BlueGreen event. This event was paid for by Jinny and BlueGreen wanted to pirate the event. That very night the guests were going to be asked to fill out the "transportation quest" we wanted a true reaction so the guest thought they were meeting with Jinny to explore the facilities that she was offering to those who come together for a good cause. But, the true "meaning" was to come at them with a clean slate: with the question on "transportation" their data was important because they were to be the "control" for the study. I took the matter up in small claims court; the "judge" SAID " it does not "matter" the only thing that mattered was that he was the "Master of History" and he personally knew all of my history; do you thing you can win in my court room?" This is what the judge said to me; he did not care that I needed a license to do the job, I could go to jail if I lied to a prospect because I am supposed to have a fiduciary relationship with them. No lies! He said that the real estate commission had no value to anything. I have no "rights." I cannot get due process in the state of S.C. So, it seemed to me that if "Nothing -a group of people" can become a corporation; than the corporation becomes a person, and therefore get the right's of a person. How about the inverse? OK! So, I become a corporation and as a corporation, I can act like a corporation can act; I can litigate the terms of these restrictions being placed on my ability to get employment. I want to get corporate rights to get my human rights under the 13th amendment of the Constitution of the U.S. I think that their is a legal precedent because a corporation by its very nature of being incorporated becomes a citizen too, with all the rights of an individual; therefore, as an individual I also "should" be able to become a corporation and as such get the rights of a corporation to litigate over labor. Also, if I were a corporation I would welcome unionization, become a union member just like Constantine did when he became a Christian, 300 AD Rome. As a member of the "union," I'm asking for the evidence about the Law, not the "statute" of prejudiced because the prosecutor screamed to the jury: "he is a 'time share salesman' what chance did she have." Now the prosecutor knew that she was tampering with the jury because I sold "family vacations" and that was my history. I was fired from most of the resorts on the beach because I would not lie to the family about their vacation possibilities, for example, I would not sell it as an investment in real estate, as in renting it out and making money. If it is a right to work state why do you need a "license" which cost money to get and carries a liability with it? Now today, you do not need a license to sell vacation programs because the "southern elites of S.C did not want to protect the consumer they want to fleece the consumer; that is why the S.C legislature removed the licensing requirement needed to sell these programs. But, when I was involved a license was required; therefore there was a tertiary contract between the state and license holder. I'm a political prisoner who needs a way to get relief because when I went up for a Pardon it was turned down for political reasons meaning that I did not have an honest opportunity for getting the pardon; this cost $15000 reduced to $12,500 if paid in cash for something that could not happen; the state of S.C put a "sting" on me. The state of SC allowed me to think that I could get a Pardon if I did every thing legally but in fact this was not politically possible; the state is a "fucking" fraud.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
In today's world it is all about politics. Yes! This is the truth - it may not be your truth; but it is society's truth. It's the truth of "La La" Land. Now this is why I believe that if "felons" united by joining together -the act in itself is Kafkaesque- their assembly becomes the "stage" - upon which they have a "voice." If there is a "voice" than others can hear it. So if there is no "voice" how does one expect others to hear the "quiet" turmoil boiling away? Therefore WWW.theblackmarket.me is the place to be. It's the way of Kafka. "It will set one free of old assumptions, to discern previously unseen patterns, and to dare. Come touch, taste, tap, toy with, discover and rekindle that which is ours yet yours alone," the Humanities. There in the Humanities one can find the political way -once one is unionized. For example, let's say that one became a legal corporation, let's say I was a corporation, I could force arbitration; the felon would become the attorney's best friend all over again. What a fantasy it would be if the felon could sue the potential employer for refusing their opportunity of success based upon the grounds of being a felon. Think about it; if a corporation is a person & a person can become a corporation what restricts the felon from suing on grounds of discrimination, using the corporate view of arbitration, litigation. This is exactly what I'm in the process of doing, becoming a corporation's citizen. Then I'm going to take it wherever it will take me because wherever I go there will be a record of their actions as evidence of corruption due to political pressures. Bu if the truth be known, they tried to kill me once. I know this because I heard the story going around from one of the regulars who attended the "jail house" in Carrizozo, N.M. It could be that he just liked having a private cell - I slept in the bullpen & we shared a common area out side of the toilets; it was a setting out of the wild west. The dude was one of the local shamans. He told me that he saved my life only because I offered him help one cold and snowy night in the town of Ruidoso, N.M. He said that they were coming to get me if they could. Do not fool yourself into believing that there is justice. As per my very own experience, there is no law other than the law of "power" & money - the laws that govern the masses on behalf of the few, the elites. Imagine dubbing Kafka's cape and seeing how the masses are morphing into the "betel" of the day, hogtied.
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Friday, August 15, 2014
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Why is it hard to make a decision? To me, decision is a cost because I acquired something new, or I got rid of something old. I like things to happen on their own merit without conscious effort, simple living. The one thing that I know for sure is that I have not attained enlightenment in my life; how about you? But doing "something" is much different because it has an immediate gratification tied along with the completion of the task; like today, I took the pressure washer to my deck. Now! My deck looks new; I felt "accomplished" even though it was a task long overdue. No negatives coming my way - all my vibes are positive. It's my body that is feeling the pain; my mind is out with the fairies of yesterday, whatever that means. I do not have anything new to contend with; I have a clean deck to be sure. When I wake up tomorrow I will feel as if I do indeed deserve to take the day off because I have the evidence right in front of me. My clean new deck will ring out loud and clear that yes he did this all by himself, never giving way to temptation to put it off until the big moon comes around again. What I like are sub-totals because you can add or detract from it; it still "could" be a subtotal because it is but a snapshot in time. Yes! To me "life" is supposed to have an ebbing quality to it, more like "you are on it" rather than "you are in it" and on & in you go down the "yellow brick road." I can see passing something on to the next person; so, I suppose that is not a loss because you did not get rid of something you simply allowed it to move on, "tribal" you see, in the nature of sharing. Anyway, the long and the short of it, "Choices" over "decisions," this way you can pick out what you need when you need it; so the remainder can be there for when it is needed. Meanwhile, there is no need to become uncomfortable about rejecting today's options for there will always be a tomorrow to try all over again.
You fucked up because you were not conscious when you were supposed to be or could have been due to being distracted by the turmoil of your inner mind - this cognitive dissonance that comes alive when you are cavalierly playing with the strings of your soul. This means that you fucked up because you were not in concert with humanities' "best interests;" but your own "best interest." You do this because the Law is "lawless." You have the constitution as the "guide." For example, when the 4 Gospels of the bible were being written there was the "quote book" of Jesus. Your constitution is your "quote book." Think of it this way, the 4th gospel of John, was written with the letters of a learned Roman, Paul, who gave Jesus the status of God because Constantine the emperor of Rome wanted to convert into being the power behind the throne of the most powerful, God. This was his conversion to Christianity. James, the brother of Jesus, did not believe this to be true, but than he could not write because he was illiterate, as was Jesus; their side of the story is not written . So Paul the "outcast" got the last word with the Gospel of John. And since that day the "elites" of power have been defining what goes into the "quote book" of governance to guide today's gospel of interpretations. Please remember there were many more gospels written; but Constantine wanted all them destroyed because like a kid he wanted his god to be all god; therefore, your god and you had to get out of town. Does this sound familiar to you because it is what ISIS is saying to its population today, convert or die just like when the movement first came out of Rome, convert or die. So, I suggest that you become conscious about your environment because on average the average individual will break the law on a daily basis and not realize that a law was broken because it was against their common sense of what a law was all about. You are in "check mate" before you move your first "rook." Let your imagination flow freely; imagine if you will the stories of the "Crusades." How the Gospel of the day governs how and when the holy lands are to be managed, never resolved because it's its privilege to proselytize. Remember Clinton, "It depends on the meaning of is, is;" ISIS is here because it is its it, it is a mindset, "the meaning of is, is." Its name is a symbol which draws out the four horse man of some trilogy flapping in one's psyche. observing the letters you can see "is" in the right eye; "is" in the left eye and as Red Skeleton said, "shed a tear and there "is" mud in your eye." Only when he said it he was referring to a grain of sand in your right and left eye; for he was the "sand man" of your dreams. Let me also say that the way of the U.S. "elites" manages its social contract with its people they should be thankful that they are citizens of the new world order, not like most of us a citizen of the U.S. How the hell did "you" get here from there when, as Updike said, "you can't get there from here," via the "Rabbit" trilogy. Side bar: "Rabbit" opens up with "black guys" playing the "hoops." "Rabbit" died with "black guys" playing the "hoops" and a lot of your constitutional rights have been chiseled away from your social contract with government and its white "elites." Updike was couching the white middle class's rise after the war with the "black guys" stain of yesterday's utility; the slave in transition as the concrete was stained by the labor of the old "ice house." Yes, refrigeration replaced the "ice house;" the water's stain ran down the gutter to the corner of the road where the "black guys" were shooting hoops. How does it feel watching the "black guys" shooting hoops while you wait around to get "guillotined" out of the game like the -black man- was "castrated" out with welfare.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Monday, August 11, 2014
OK! Hear we go on the little train of "imagination"- I'm a stranger -"A stranger in the night;" I slip in beside myself, eavesdropping in on my own conversation with others like myself who are out and about. Would "you" have understood what I wanted "you" to consider, or would "you" question the fact about my own understanding of the conversation. Did my conversation reflect that I understood what you were talking about. I'm telling you, as the "stranger" eavesdropping in on conversations, I might come off misunderstanding what the encounter is all about. My conclusions about myself are still in the "jury room" because I know that if I allow for the differences between us and validate those differences, than a bridge can be created to span those differences allowing for a more comfortable confluence of ideas. Now! The surprising thing with me is that I communicate more easily with another stranger than I do with some acquaintance. With acquaintances, some of their differences awaken a tingling in the back of my mind's eye, as they say. For example, it seems that you have to make allowances for their unspoken mannerisms. You know - the way that they are comfortable with carrying themselves, their countenance. Yes! You could say it's all about how you displace space, your own "space." How much of your space is occupied at any given moment. Are you living in the moment, or I a "fantasy" world? Plus, according to those who profess to know and study the hermeneutics of society say that an individual might be using about 4% of self in any give moment, 4% present in the "moment" & 96% absent from any given encounter with others. So it seems to me that the key to the exercise is that I "should" listen with an open mind to foster an awareness of what "is" so that I could attain that which can be. Remember what the "pres" said:"it depends on what the meaning of "is" is. Because! "Creativity is all about freeing your self of old assumptions. Discerning previously unseen patterns, daring to come touch, taste, tap, toy with and discover that which is ours is yet your alone." A stolen quote from the "humanities."
Sunday, August 10, 2014
I want to tell you about two guys in prison who gave me refuge without realizing it; regardless they did me a big "favor" when there were no "favors" to be had. Yet, because of them, I could have a comfortable place to pick up my copy of the "Wall Street Journal." I needed the journal like a junkie needed his fix. It was my escape back in time so that I would have a place to engage my brain separate from the prison's ground, a place in the imaginary "icicle garden." The thing I remember about these two guys was that their cell was not filled with hate. Because many to almost all of the inmates are full of "hate" so over time their cells are downright paralyzing for the occupants; you could feel it when they invite you into their cell for a "sit down." I felt it when the system would run different inmates through my cell on a weekly basis just to fuck with me; some of those inmates were so fucking heavy with bad trauma. It is one of the reasons that I had a "mental" shift in my brain's protective zone, defensive mechanism. For me prison was a living hell. Anyway back to these two guys in prison; one was a "pirate" - drug dealer. The other guy, well he was a defrocked "DA" from Charleston, SC. But he did not stop me from coming into his cell each night to pick up my paper. I could sit in their cell; it almost felt centering. They were not the typical cell mates in a maximum security prison like Lieber prison in Ridgeville, SC. The "Wall Street Journal" belonged to the "pirate" in the cell; he got it to follow his stock portfolio on a daily basis. Both of these guys will be able to start over when they get released. I know that the "pirate" will be living down in the Keys of Florida. He told me that he could just lay back in his bunk and close his eyes and his lady friend would always be there waiting for him. She would be naked and tempting him to surrender his seed to her. He said that he had movies of her stored in his brain and he could pull them out at will. Lucky dude. I'm happy for the "pirate." Now, for the "DA", he was more of a stand off kind of guy, but I can tell you a story about what I heard in the breakfast line up one morning. I just picked up my plate and bowl of cereal, sitting down next to these two guys talking about the "DA" coming on to the yard and how they are going to kill him; nothing happened, but they were talking about it. Anyway, I do not believe that the DA really wanted anything to do with a "child molester" in prison. Yes! The fucking pricks of SC put me in prison as a "child molester" just so that the inmates would know that if they had to rape anyone, rape me. Just like it is on the outs side, sex offenders registry for the bulls' eye again.