Does It "matter" ?

Me too! It does not "matter" to me whether you care about it or not; I'm only interested in the "matter" of whether or not you understand it- therefore willing to accept "culpability" to it. Being responsible for not paying attention to what others are saying in your name. You are "John Q. public." So I ask you: if you find yourself in a "situation" where you have to judge something in abstention, how will you deconstruct your "point of view" to be the judge? Why will you "matter" if you never payed attention to the potential causalities brought through your behavior. "Judge not, be you judged" is not an acceptable way to pass through life; however, it is an "enjoyable" way to pass through life. Because when you see how others have failed, you know that you can do better; therefore, you too commit the "sin." But, you never understood the fallacy behind believing in this "matter." What am I saying to you? This "matters" only if you care to pay attention. For example, Cecelia just left the house to walk home; she can no longer be seen. She lives about half a mile away. It starts to rain; you think it feels like it might rain; it might not really be ready to rain so does it "matter" if you jump in the car or not so that you can make sure she does not get rained on? Will she get home before it really starts to rain? Maybe she likes the rain; maybe she feels that it's an enjoyable feeling to walk in a light shower of rain; it is refreshing. So, worry not because it is not you who will feel the pleasing moment to enjoy being rained upon. Also, Cecelia is an old "broad" who knows how to take care of herself; she might be taken back with your attitude of needing to save Cecelia. You see, this is how I see it, if I can see it from my house it matters; otherwise, it may, or it may not "matter."
 

Opinion!

So they say "low-T;" well I'm not sure that is the problem. Because I personally was never aggressive, stupid yes, but not aggressive. How about you; is your state of mind something that you control, or do you like so many others just go off the deep end when someone steps out of line -in your estimation- and ruffles your feathers without them even knowing that this slip on your part has occurred? Yes! if it is your mind, it is your slip. So please pick yourself up instead of tearing someone down. When you tear someone down all you are doing is showing how shallow your mind can be and therefore, expressing the depth of your insecurity. OK, maybe it is "low-insecurity," not "low-T." Whatever it is, it could be the root to that which has been bothering your sense of self. What do I mean? Remembering you are or "could" be a product of passive acceptance from your family, friends, neighborhood and your questionable education because if you have accepted all of the unprocessed interjections from the various influences in your life it might just be time to take the "garbage" out and dump it in the trash can. Now! How wonderful you "could" feel if all you had to do was accept people at face value. Unfortunately for you, this probably would only set you up to take the next tumble off of the old "idea" that the earth was flat; if you sailed out of your comfort zone you would simply fall off and tumble over the edge of existence. Well, you know - or maybe you don't - that it is really a waste of energy to passively accept the projections that you are fielding from those who do not know that their affect is on target. Shit, give yourself a break and use the bathroom instead of storing everything in the closet of your mind. Yes! just come out of the closet and enjoy the possibilities of life in a free and unencumbered manner. Chow!

Torpedo or full steam ahead?

You need to be an "optimist" for the sake of your own "opportunities." Otherwise you are "off the table" when "life" comes around. Of course I believe this because I have never been able to get my "yesterdays" back after I squander their moments. Yes, that's right; you have to be willing to participate in the game of life or sit on the side lines and grow old. Life is rather like the theater - to get the best experience, you need to "suspend your disbelief" so that your creativity has a chance to find its potential expression. One of the greatest obstacles that you need to address is your ability to attract positive influences in your life. Because negativity will destroy creativity if you do not do due diligence. Yes, it is the negative force which is brought on by others because of jealousy from within your family of influence, or the competitive forces from the "grinding out of life," the meat grinder of competition. Also, you cannot take "competition" as a negative force because life cannot wait for you to make up your mind. Life is evolving at its pace; it is your responsibility to take the needed action so as to give your input traction; otherwise, life will spit you out like an inspector pulls a rejected item from the assembly line. Opportunity is not some thing which occurs in some vacuum of your making. Opportunity is the gas which comes from life's mulching process. You could say that it is life's action, meaning your commitment to being in this world, not the world of those who profess that life's meaning comes to you as a product of how well you detach your earthly life from some fantasy beyond the universe, heaven. Finally, if you are not in this world, the world of the living, please stop complaining about your lot in life. OK! There is an expression floating around which goes something like this, "you are with m' or against me" Yes, there is also "shit or get of the pot" because passing gas while you wait to do your "business" is just another way of expressing how well you have mastered the "speak" of procrastination.

Asking "forgiveness".

I do a post daily so I do not want someone to misunderstand my position; I'm not talking about spirituality, your belief system. I'm happy that you have one; I wish I had one. Anyway, I like very broad latitudes when playing "metaphor" with the symbol of the church. If you could say universal church, you could "metaphor" the catholic church, catholic means universal. And the best part of that you can bring up Rome, remembering Emperor Constantine creating the Papal State, your bible. From my point of view, you need "confession" because you sin daily without remorse if you are as like your neighbor. Worry not, every neighborhood has its own unique sins. The beauty of a sin is that it can be a "big" sin or a "little" sin; confession is good for the soul, speak up in this "space" for your forgiveness.  I'll always love the Papal Bulls being sold during the reformation because they allowed you immunity from sin, therefore the law. Remember the Reformation's Renaissance was a  battle between the powers, Germany and Rome's papal state. Those papal bulls were selling like "hot cakes" in Germany; Frederick was unhappy. And you know the rest of the story, Protestantism. So, the church is just a metaphor for the "second" son. The first son got the land; the second son got the church. It was a way of dividing up the family assets: second son collected the people's faith tax at a 1/10 %; it was the usual church tax. The first son got all the tangibles, titles.  It's is the story of the Middle East today with all its complexities; for when Mohammad died, you were a Sunni if you were from Mohammad tribe; if you were a disciple of Mohammad you were a Shia, like the second son, you get the church.  Every population has its church, it's the "stomach" of opportunity. Its stewardship is couched in the business "community" and its special interest groups, "the elites come marching in." I like the stomach as a metaphor because your "stomach" is your body's brain. Yes! It's is true, "all politics is local.
Thanking you in advance.

Punting!

When you do a certain action over time, you become immune to that action. It's familiar, second nature. Therefore, if you are not careful, when you move into a new situation your familiar action could lead to unwanted consequences because you did not take into consideration the effect of your action on the peripheral terrain. Remember what Machiavelli said about your adversary's terrain: "...know it intimately before you attack...." Each time you interact with the public is an opportunity for growth, person to person. These first moments can be critical if you are wishing for a "win win situation." You want to follow the lead not the leader, listen to the "idea" fully before considering a "decision." Because if a decision means that you are cutting yourself off, if you are closed to the "idea," before you gave it a chance it will be like the dominoes falling after the first one falls unfurling its action from beginning to end, continuous; this is the same as on the hill lock of a cell, the lock holds until put into action from hill lock to hill lock until completion. But instead, you "could" nurture patience with others so that you can attain understanding. This understanding will give you a more meaningful experience when you engage with people. It could be an "opening on emotion" tethered to a "closing on silence" giving you a balanced sense of worth. You "could" think about it as being "harvested," so that you "could" be consumed; of course that "should" be the object of the exercise. Also, think Commerce where you are the "widget" out and about looking for your market share. As you know, you need to make yourself available for the "hook-up;" how else is there a coupling?

"lost"

I am what I am because I never knew myself; so, now who am I?  I'm the empty space between the place that I wish I had visited, the way that I was not nurtured. So, what am I saying? I'm saying that I did not understand that I was responsible for whom I would become because I was too busy with life's business - meaning life can come at you without deference to your needs, a place setting for you at life's table. You cannot guide yourself if you do not understand that the space you are occupying at the moment is in conflict with, or in confluence with forces outside of your control. In my case, due to errant socialization which lacked positive exposure to the meaning of personal participation, I did not know that I was doing an injustice to myself. For I never knew that there was a meaning to life other than to survive- however life's "Helter Skelter" was streaming in my direction - like I supposed a skier might run into a mogul patch made up from those who previously traversed the trail's slope. The caveat to it is that in life someone else is always trying to deliberately create the mogul patch where, on the sky slope, the mogul is groomed to allow you the opportunity to enjoy the pleasure of recreation - wherein life moguls are designed to trap you and contain you so that you will conform to someone else's sense of exhilaration. Maybe you can think about it as if you were here as a slave to someone's sense of right verses wrong without a road map giving you directions to their promised land. For example, when I was young I could not join the Boy's Club because I was a Catholic, not protestant. If I wanted to join some thing it had to be the Catholic understanding of socialization -C.Y.O. Catholic Youth Organization. To me, this was a crock of "shit" because there was no love in my family; the only love on the street was the love of money and the driving force to attain what it could buy - material things, booze and sex. Please, I should say that my exposure to life was a "farce" driven by the inadequate sense of self. If we go back in time to when I was growing up,  Black guys were going to jail for being "entrepreneurial" about marijuana; yet today, the political elites want to get entrepreneurial with the "marketing" of marijuana. What a different life's experience those black entrepreneurial marijuana "marketing" business men "could have enjoyed," Yes!  How about if we never outlawed marijuana "ganja" like we outlawed alcohol - do you think that the young people who were imprisoned for their attempt at free market capitalism would have had a different experience than being "cum dumps" in some southern style concentration camp run by the religious right.
 

"Shit" happens!

When I was attending the college of Charleston, I was living on Bennett St., one block from a small park blessed with the remains of one of Charleston's old libraries, with just the columns remaining to mark its time and place. 22 Bennett St. was an old boarding house with about 11rooms which could be combined to create rental situations, whatever I chose to do with it, to accommodate whoever came my way. I did not know that I was running an illegal boarding house until I took over the ownership of the business- the Vicky Lynn House, was going to be its name. You see, everything I did was wrong because I was doing it. Yes! I was the felon who could be "fucked" by the citizens of Charleston, SC. -fucked over by whoever chose to because it suited the moral decay of SC and their citizens. Believe me or not, it is your privilege to believe what you wish; but when you give the power to someone who is weak, as the judiciary is weak, you are giving the power to the forces of evil which someday is going to come back and bite you on your ass. Anyway, I was living right around the corner from the Ronald MacDonald house on Gadsden St. It is a place for temporary living to assist cancer survivors. A beautiful neighborhood to go crazy in; this is where, after 5years of torment, I attempted to commit suicide. Why? I was under a 5 year mandated mental health program that drove me to try to kill myself. Yes! The state of SC said that I needed to be reprogrammed back into society. I was to seek redemption; confess for my sins against humanity; the only problem was that I never committed the sin that I was being charged with. I would tell the therapist my "side" of the story; they said that I had to be delusional because the jury found me guilty; there was never any evidence presented to the jury other than that the "rogue" prosecutor screaming to the jury, "he is a "time share" salesman, what chance did she have". Yes! because, at one time in my life, I sold some time shares I was incapable of telling the truth; I was not human; therefore I had to be guilty. So, a "rogue jury and judge" sentenced me to be molested by the hands of the perverted souls behind bars. Plus, when I got out of jail the state of SC put a target on my back when they listed me as a child rapist. Yes! You can look me up, find out exactly where I live, so that if you are one of the demented souls from the community this is where your target is. It is the same in prison as it is out in the community, if you have to fuck and rape some poor son of a bitch this is who we recommend, signed SC. I know, we all have a tale of woe.